Well, i finally have things to tell. Things turned this way, i got selected for an entrance exam from nowhere and boarded the plane a week later to pune. I had totally fucked up my mind till then cause i had nothing to write..my hand was numb like my head. Winters were going away, and i had nothing to hold. No love and no life. Yes, this sounds less pathetic then the situation was. Anyways, i headed to my destination with less expectations. The time i landed was the time i wanted to forget the world behind, although i had no idea where i was.
Me and my close friend with her cousin reached our motel and i happened to rush to the washroom as soon as we entered the small room with large front window. I looked into the mirror, my eyebrow was swollen..and made me look ugly for that time. I re-entered that small room with large window and sat down at the corner of the bed, trying to smile.
We went to a tareef restaurant approximately 1 km from our motel, i was starving but yet lost and trying to figure out where i was. A little chit-chat and unavoidable "who are you" looks, were letting me run back to my small room. Unquestionably, we went further to my friend's cousin's place. I laughed a little bit, but wasn't really sure that i wanted to. We had to study that night but i, always had to sleep if I'm tired of thinking and pretending. So, i was asleep at 00hours. I woke up early because of this dream i had(was really a nightmare). My friend was asleep, after her three alarms with cacophonous tone buzzed her ears, she opened her half eye and asked me for coffee. She got up and we kept on reading all that we brought in the name of our notes.
Then we had to get ready for the exam, as usual i was confused what to wear, although i decided earlier before leaving, but then its my biggest weakness ('clothes'). We rushed to our examination hall, i had that big box sized calculator, my dad brought from his office..i was too embarrassed to carry that but who cares. After i came out of the hall, i was so astonished at the fact that i managed to attempt 14 questions with logic out of 45 and still hoped to get selected, my nightmare was about to come real. We tossed between two institutes and were preparing our minds against the evil of not getting in. Results were out, my friend saw three names where none matched ours. The biggest obstacle was to tell truth to our parents and we did it. Hell, we came back to our hotel and slept. After we got up, we were trying to sympathize with each other and bring back our minds from NCRA. We walked up to cousin's place and I was less stressed cause we finally would go and eat something. Her brother suggested McD, i was okay with everything until i realized that i have to sit on the back seat of a blue bajaj avenger and i couldn't guess what's next. I held this big smile that my lips borrowed from my heart. We started from his home at 2130hours and strolled on bike at night till it was 2215hours on the big clock i saw midway, my friend was trying. Wohoo!! i was having time of my lifetime. Literally, if her cousin wasn't making us laugh at the restaurant, i would have smiled for no reason and people might have miscalculated my gesture. How can i not mention that twelve and burger girl. Yes, those jokes were real good because it was night and streets were more alive than ever. And then, we went on pune darshan on bikes, in the night and the street lights. The best thing was, i was with unknowns at a unknown place at an odd time and i was hell not worried. Gradually, i was more concerned to feel that the reason for what i was there, was written by god's hand. I wanted to open up my hands to gather all the love of life and to run miles and miles and miles out of excitement and adrenaline rush in my body. Back to that small room again was not that bad too, obviously things were better in every aspect after that ride. We had photographic sessions in every possible posture.
Slept at 0327hours and opened up eyes at 0943hours blabbering hey, i can't sleep anymore. I got up saying i want to eat strawberries today and no plan ahead, we came out of our hotel room at 1230hours, starving. Ate the most random dishes ever, never heard of it..bought my strawberries and some kurkure that my friend intended to eat in the morning(hehe, i shouldn't have mentioned that). Our next station destination was Chaturshangi temple on a hilltop, the word 'hill' let us go there and more than a hill it was rather a lover's point. We sat there in the numbness, talking less and seeing more or not seeing anymore. Down the hill after a two hour retreat, we had nariyal pani with malai and some shopping. Our heads were heavy and we sat in cafe called sidewalk, desperately needed a coffee(we're caffeine addicts). Cousin came and suggested to go to the most happening area of the place, we strolled on foot for about two hours, talking and laughing and headed back home, yes it was like home then. We now had to leave, our cab was waiting at the door and for me and her it was hard to step down. We were just watching the place and each others face and talked of places we visited last night. We reached airport three hours before our plane could fly, we sat there waiting for something that tells us yeah, you're not going anywhere from this place. My mind was still searching for one good reason to continue leaving for home. I was walking on the floor, still resisting my restless mind googling the reason of my presence in there. the reason? the reason? Was i there to meet someone or my destiny was taking shape, why was i meant to be there?? I needed an answer. I saw many faces but none resembled my soul. I boarded the plane, hoping to get the window seat..and bid last goodbye to beautiful Pune. And there i was, flying high drawing random pictures on my e-ticket and trying to not ruin my time in my seat which probably i would never live again.
This may not be the end of a journey, and there could be a li'l more to live again.
*ende*
