nice sound...isn't it!! Bringing up something to madness, following it and hoping that they might understand this time...(as a matter of fact) but u can't let them understand until you uncover your veil. But "phew" for ----> you just stopped trying...to things get better themselves, because you fear to disclose you in you. Here is a song that goes with it, follow it " I've tried so hard and got so far...in the end it doesn't even matter" (linkin park).
This isn't about the song, this is about life " you can't just thrive on words for your whole life...come to reality...come to your senses...don't just speak..do it..blah-blah blah-blah"...phew. AND there is this big confusion i live with, everyday. What to pursue...what not to????????????? Should i pursue a thought and take it to a action or just without a minute's thought do what i have to...!!! Latter is my mom's point of view of living life but "i" strictly rely on my thought ( which indeed takes a lot of time to get converted into a action...ha!).
I consistently live a strange life which hardly anyone can understand but my family bet that they can...they say" you're lazy, you're not laborious, you're not a good student neither a good daughter, because you live the way you want to"..." you don't care about others", i can't argue with them anymore and i don't have to. I will unlock the story in the next post. This isn't the right time...let me think-over and then pour in here.
And about the day...it wasn't awesome but isn't that bad. Fortunately i was happy today. Fortunately i got to know that people still care. Fortunately i saw a "hard-working and a polite" man today. Fortunately the day was brighter than i expected it would be. The mind was relaxed unlike other days but gradually moving towards the night 26th January proved to be a drama again. My closed one read my personal diary. But fortunately their was no discussion on it but rather on my non-seriousness of putting my diary in open...huh!!
I hide my inner volcanoes while talking to my closed ones just to make them happy. I wasn't like this but have become so..."phew"( holds a deeper meaning in my sense).
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