Thursday, February 11, 2010

Beyond Love

From few days I've been thinking about many things..wondering about what ifs, hows and whys. Sometimes just look at the roadside while you are traveling, notice things and faces that you generally never do...see the smiles and tensions...shops and shouting vendors. Notice children non-plussed, new to the world...hoping to get as soon as to their homes so that they could go out and play:), their innocent expressions and body languages...these small wonders give a meaning to live. I am in love with the world these days, having wonderful people around me makes sun brighter.
I realized that love isn't with a person but within a person.We just need a trustworthy person to share it, therefore when we say that we're in love...we simply mean that we have found someone to share our love, kept for long in our hearts. Talking about the world beyond love, the word beyond holds a simple meaning in every sense. People content themselves with the purity and importance of being from just falling in love with some person, find another world in there...but they aren't able to go beyond love. Love is a gate to the world of sacrifices, compromises, to the world of happiness, pain and pleasure, to the world of total-freedom that you never earned being not in love. You can never "own" a person, if you do that you don't have much to boast about. Love is a divine feeling but beyond love you become divine.

My day was absolutely great until the evening, I didn't understand my own behavior , there was nothing to cry about...i did it, there was nothing to write down...i did it, there was nothing to think hard...i did it, there was no one to be blamed...i did it to myself, there was a lot to say...i said nothing. Supposedly at home i'm an insensitive human being to whom talking to friends is everything, i couldn't change myself this time, because i need them all the time...i know whats right and whats wrong but then at home nobody cares for what you know...they care for what you show. My close friend says that I'm over-reacting and deeply touched on non-sense arguments...but then i couldn't control the tears welling from my eyes. Sometimes i just ask myself that why they can't see me happy, why can't they trust me, why they keep yelling about the past...I'm in no hurry but every body at my dwelling is. I see no way out where everything just gets normal and loving. I'm living in a darn confusion.

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