I observed something bizarre but interesting on my blog stats, the most searched keyword was "abyss". Is it true then, we are eager to fall? Curiosity about abyss is a dead end or is it not? I may not want to further dig this topic because its kinda gravitational. Me finds no peace these days to pour in here, instability and insatiability, both forces are alike and combination of these terrify my world. Instability is in the context of my thought and insatiability is again related to thought but also will. I can not fulfill my will or something that's more of me, I lack will and wisdom. I judge myself like others do, I try to fight my conflicting thoughts, I push them away constantly, but corner of my heart denies everything that's true, it is lured by sadism and hate. May be that we call bizarre or may be not.
