dramatic!!!....i know. Life always comes up with surprises. Surprises u can never expect...sometimes "sad" and sometimes "bewildering". You stand non-plussed in the situation you confront. You prove, you fail. You never prove, you enjoy being alive. (EXPERIENCE, you see). Free-willed people live longer. You can never satisfy the people around you, they will always advice you, never do they understand. Their tendencies are different...only you can enhance yourself.
Talking about things in personal...i have stopped proving things to others and i think I've become more positive with things i possess:) I worth my qualities...whatever they are!
More about life in real...i don't conclude things happening in my life as real...I'm hallucinated...more than ever. I don't know where am i???? This is just another place...a place so strange, plain...no color, no flora...nothing like "i-have-a-reason-to-live" feeling but this is with this real world too....i often question my self, whats the reason of my being, why am i living this aimless life..., never did want to make money or love, I'm just waiting for my last breath...making efforts to die peacefully. Is this all??? Is it going to get over in a matter of seconds??? No laughs, no smiles, no tears, no cursing will be able to stop me from dying. I day-dream about all the things i expect to happen but they never will happen. These feelings take toll of my thoughts...I'm not here, I'm somewhere else. I want to write, but can't think...if i want to think, i'm unable to write it down. This is something that never happens with me...stranger than ever...undiagnosed.
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