I was totally calm that day despite of all blah-blah. Sitting on my t-point, i was looking at lots of loaded and empty vehicles running, beyond this highway was a field spread and then, my favorite part, 'horizon' where glimpse of purple with the setting sun portrayed a beautiful painting. I could hear my heart beat. The sound of waffling of leaves was a respite among all day torments. This was the day where stillness was in my inner-self, and the other day scenario changed.
I, couldn't bear the chaos and defeat, i went to my t-point as i was super-disturbed. Everything and anything didn't matter. Heart beats were not less than growls of a drum, that purple of sky was no more a painting...leaves waffled for no reason. I tried to look inside out, or googled the 'reason'. Everything was perfectly ab-normal inside me...then why? Then why, this chaos and no running vehicle seemed running actually...why the world grew still? Each part of me wanted to kill the other one, as if they were on some strike..heart beat became feeble, terribly sinking. I had to do something to stop, it goddamn 'running'. I knelt down and prayed then, i didn't know to whom i was addressing. I've heard those voices which are wiser .
*ende*
